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Quite often I get the question, why don't you play live, and why don't I? Let's find out. As many of you know, I have a background as a musician. Honestly, I don't even know why you bother asking, because I've said it many times before, I don't play live, I don't like to play live. And if I don't like to do it, why should I? Some say "money". Okay, well, I can tell you something. I've been offered, I think it was £300,000 to play live two concerts in London some years ago. And as you must know by now, I said no, no thanks. I would rather stay home here and change oil on my car, or collect some rotten wood from the forest to spread on my ruined former agricultural land. I would rather spend time with my family, with my kids. I would rather, you know, spend time sitting here in the car, talking to those who subscribe to Thulean Perspective. I don't give a shit about money. I never do anything to make money. I do make money, but that's because I do something. Big difference. Never do anything to make money, but I make money because I do something. To me, playing live is not something attractive. It would have been a sacrifice. And it would have been a sacrifice too large for me to make, because I don't like it. I don't want to. I don't want to spend time away from my home and family to rehearse with some metalheads. I don't want to spend time, I don't want to go to London. That's the last place in Europe I would want to be. London. Yeah. And with that said, I think playing live is embarrassing, really. You have some narcissistic, egotistical, self-centered asshole on the stage who runs about, screams, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, look at me, look at me. I don't like that type of attention, really. I barely cope with the type of attention I get from my YouTube channel.^[1][2] And my YouTube channel is 100% controlled by me. I decide what to put out. I decide how to put it out. I decide when to put it out.^[3] I decide if I want to put it out. I even decide if I want to take it down after I have put it out. It's all freedom for me. I can make music on my computer. And I can take my time to get it down the way I want it to be. And that's it. I guess there's a lot I could say about this. And I think all of it would make me look like a complete asshole. And that's okay.^[4] But I couldn't be bothered, really, to explain it all. I don't like live concerts. I really, really wouldn't like to play live myself. And I don't see the point in it. It's completely meaningless to me. And I have so much to do that is better than that in my life.^[5] I already spent 15 or so years in prison. I'm not going to go out there and waste more of my time on such things, really. To be honest, I would probably rather spend like a month in prison than spend a month rehearsing with some musicians, some metalheads. I pick prison over that, really. And I say that knowing very well what prison is like. So don't get me wrong here. Prison sucks. Big time. I told you I would sound like an asshole if I explained things. Kind of proved my point, didn't I? Music, to me, is something private. Something you can, and should, I guess, enjoy on your own. Just you and the music. And I'm not just talking about my music. I'm not even talking about my music. I'm talking about music in general. Others will disagree with me. Fine. Others will have a completely different view. Fine. But that's my opinion. And I guess it's one of the main reasons why I could be bothered to play life. Happiness is to be satisfied with little. Wanting more and more and more is a completely meaningless, downward-going spiral into decadence and corruption and decay and unhappiness. "The man who makes everything that leads to happiness depends upon himself, and not upon other men, has adopted the very best plan for living happily. This is the man of moderation, the man of manly character and of wisdom." (Plato)

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1. Yeah. That was probably the most accurate description of the average musician ever. (Sorry...)
2. But that's a sacrifice I AM willing to pay.
3. If I want to say something, I can do that here on YT.
4. My true self unveiled!?
5. Music recorded in a studio the way the musician wanted it to be will ALWAYS be better. As I see it.